It has been over a year since I painted anything. Several personal life events, a lot of confusion, and uncertainty about my skills as an artist, have all kept me from even thinking about painting. The passion for painting had disappeared. It wasn’t fun anymore – it was more of a chore. Artists are full of self-doubt, and while we may receive tons of positive reinforcement, there is always one who constantly comes at us with negative critiques that adversely impacts our self-confidence. I was far too focused on whether my work was “good enough.” And listening much too much to that “voice.” I had a long talk with myself, and came to the conclusion that the negativism wasn’t about me, my work, or helping me to advance. It was about that person’s own insecurities.
Steve Jobs said it best: “Don’t let the noise of others’ opinions drown out your own inner voice.”
And he’s right! The only way I’m going to improve is to stop listening to the naysayers, and pay more attention to the people who are TRULY trying to help me grow – and there are many of them. I found a sketch and reference photos that I have always wanted to paint. And what a joy it is to be painting again! It’s exhilarating too that, instead of looking at my painting and thinking if it will be “good enough” for this or that exhibit, I look at it and ask myself, is that the right color, the correct attitude I want, etc. I find that I am much more focused on the actual act of painting, itself.
The painting above is a Bobcat that I’m currently working on. This photo was taken a couple of weeks ago, and I’ve progressed quite a bit on it. I just can’t post it yet, as it will give away the “surprise.” The painting is done in acrylic, and is 11 x 14 inches. And it such a pleasure to be Back at the Easel!